man looking at my other post about getting sober, I keep living such a cyclical life in my 20s that needs to end right now. i dreamed i smoked weed last night thank god i didn't actually do it. im on day 7/8 of my sobriety/no vice no pornography quest and i feel a lot better. really i do. and im trying hard to ACTUALLY do things i enjoy like read magic material that makes sense to me now that ive performed for a while, and to save up money to travel, and to get a higher paying job and things like that. its getting to the point where i cant break the good part of the cycle anymore